How do i fix this? Because i want to Be good Again?

Ok so, I am only 12 years old. (Yep) and im a bad kid. I mean like i curse to my Friends, I know stuff the average 12 year old shouldn't. My father was a big cheat and is very mean and i think i got stuff from him. My mom is good, But i haven't lived with her in 5 years and Now i am. So.. On my cell phone, There is A lot of bad stuff. Like cursing and just bad stuff, Not sex ting though. And i like a Boy and now my mom knows. I was a Really good kid. Always nice, Always good. But now it's like, Im so bad and Messed and i have dreams of cutting and Suicide and My mom doesn't trust me and she's so disappointed and i just want to fix that because its not ok. and I know it. and I just want to be the old me again. I think it's because of my fathers cheating and EErie ways. ive seen things on his computer and it messed me up. I have been Abused a little by him and it's not ok. Ive just turned bad. Like BAD, Not drugs, Or sex. Just bad. i want to fix it. It's like im 2 different people.SOmetimes, Im sweet and nice and loving and just so good. ALways. But then, It's Like. Im talking about drugs, And sex and Other awful things ANd Im wondering ';sHould i go to therapy?!'; SO really, All i want to know is HOw Do i become a good kid again??How do i fix this? Because i want to Be good Again?
Yes, go see someone you trust, like a counsellor. You need to talk it over with someone so that you get back on the right track. You sound like a good person who just needs guidance. You'll be fine because you're willing to make the effort. Good luck!How do i fix this? Because i want to Be good Again?
Honey, you're not ';bad'; or ';good';; you're human, so you're both. What you need to do is start and continue to make good choices. Before you make a decision, think about how your decision will affect yourself and others.


Your father is responsible for his own choices, and you are responsible for yours. This attitude of responsibility is at the heart of maturity.


Remember that everyone has the capacity for both 'good' and 'bad' within them. No one is perfect, so don't expect perfection of yourself, either. Just do your best. When you do something, good or bad, OWN it. Refusing to blame others for your decisions is incredibly freeing, and will encourage you to consistently make better decisions.


For the record, talking about sex, drugs, other issues in life is NOT bad. You are an intelligent human being with the desire to know about these things, there is nothing in the world wrong with that. Regarding sex, I highly encourage you to wait, wait, WAIT- there's no rush, you have your whole life ahead of you. In the meantime, educating yourself is a wise and positive thing. With regard to drugs, again, educate yourself. I highly encourage you not to experiment; there are real reasons that there are laws against drugs.


Talk with your mom. Work on your relationship by being honest with her. If she freaks out, you can point out that ';Ok, so you're freaking out.... don't you see that instead of trying to find out about (whatever) on the street, I'm coming to you instead?'; Tell her also of your regret for poor choices that you've made and of your desire to make better ones.





Everyone has to make their own road in this life, and the journey of a thousand miles must always start with that first step.





My best to you!
You become a good kid by doing what your mom tells you to do and doing what you KNOW is right and not doing what you know is wrong.It's THAT simple.Pray and ask the LORD to help you and HE will.Just pray in the name of JESUS hon.
I would try going to therapy or talking to your pastor.Talking about how you feel will help.
its not your fault its your dad's. u should tell your mom that you want to change and that you love her. she will accept you the way you are. i think its normal to think about sex %26amp; drugs when your 12 as long as you dont try them. because really there are a lot of consequences that you cant handle and shouldnt have to. anyways back to the point i think you should stop thinking about your dad and realize that you r a different person. people shape their own lives not genetics. i doubt bad behaviour can be inherited. you still are the good person you were you just need to bring it to the surface...
try talking to your mom about how you feel. saying a few cuss words here and there isnt all that bad! I know a whole lot of 12 year olds that are doing a lot worse things then that!! Dont beat yourself up over this! Its probably just your hormones going crazy...unfortunatly being a girl isnt so fun around your age. Good Luck hun!! =]
Don't be afraid to talk to your mother about it.


She will have good advise and do her best to help you.


That will be the best thing.